winter's unsung lullabies

here comes grief. soulcrushing.

salvation breaks through at dawn, revealing how i lost myself to winter’s suffocating sleep. wounds began to tear themselves open in the dead of night. / this disease runs bonedeep. doubt gnaws at the gaps in my soul. i can’t get out. i think i’m dying.

without you.

i’m sorry i brought all this back home with me. cruelty soaks this cold season.

streetlights glisten under fresh snowfall. love melts in the palms of our hands.

when i said (begged. pleaded. shouted.) “touch me,” i meant transform hate into devotion. i meant reinvent this haunting, reinvent me. something slipped into my mind when i was far too young to realize. i let it in / i let it in / i let it in / i let it in / i let it in.

tremors of rage distort what i was destined to be. tell me you can place this discomfort.

can you hear my cries echo across this aching forest? can you shield my eyes from these blinding lights?

winter suffocates, replicates, and leaves me stranded. / this is all i can be. for you. for anyone. i have trouble keeping promises. oaths. love.

i stand before god overwhelmed by judgement, blood’s already on the floor.

it’s time for a walk past the point of no return.